My name is Greer Walker Mom of two Friend Daughter Dance instructor And, let s not forget a woman scorned For the twenty years my husband and I were together, I gave him my soul, my life, my everything What did I get in return Heart break, crows feet, stretch marks, and a slew of insecuritiesYou see, my douchebag ex husband of fourteen years dumped me for a twenty five year old, real life Barbie Doll with a large repertoire of medical enhancements He crushed my heart His affair destroyed me There were signs lots of them but I didn t see what was right in front of me Or maybe, I didn t want toSomewhere along the line, things changed With my eyes wide open, I vowed to never go through that kind of heartache again I don t need someone to make me feel special or beautiful, or sexually charged Hell, I can take care of that part on my own if you know what I mean It s been twenty years since I last dated I have resigned myself to the fact that I ll be aloneBut There s always a but And with age comes wisdom Like I said, I had come to grips with the fact that I d always be alone until gorgeous, dominant, and sexy Nick Costa walked into my life or rather drove right into it and made me feel all sorts of things that this woman right here has no business feelingHe has me asking myself questions that I never thought I d hear myself ask Can I allow someone into my life again Can I risk being hurt Can Nick deal with all the insecurities the fallout of my marriage produced I am thirty nine, for crying out loud Can I start all over again Can I let go of the past and possibly move on with my future Could Nick Costa be my future You might want to stick around to discover the answersFor now, I ll beholding


10 thoughts on “39 & Holding

  1. Philomena Callan Cheekypee Philomena Callan Cheekypee says:

    This is the kinda book Id have liked to have read a few years ago when I had my heart broke thought there was no hope for me As I ve just turned forty I found this story and characters very relatable.This is a really good laugh out loud story There are also some heart warming parts in it too This story touched me on so many levels When your put down so much it s hard to have any values of your self worth You need someone strong to banish them worries M.R Joseph has written a really grea This is the kinda book Id have liked to have read a few years ago when I had my heart broke thought there was no hope for me As I ve just turned forty I found this story and characters very relatable.This is a really good laugh out loud story There are also some heart warming parts in it too This story touched me on so many levels When your put down so much it s hard to have any values of your self worth You need someone strong to banish them worries M.R Joseph has written a really great story with real characters I felt as if I could be friends with these characters Really enjoyable read that I found so easy to get lost into


  2. ~Dawn~TUG ~Dawn~TUG says:

    copy received for a blog tour and honest review from us lovies at 5 Mr Doughnut Loving StarsThis story gives me hopethe kind of hope that burns bright on the dark who the fuck did I marry kind of nights, where you dream of living in blessed solitude with nothing but a kindle to keep you warm Having visions that my husband finds himself in a tall, long legged, gorgeous young hotties vagina and dives in head first, I still might have a chance to meet a hot copy received for a blog tour and honest review from us lovies at 5 Mr Doughnut Loving StarsThis story gives me hopethe kind of hope that burns bright on the dark who the fuck did I marry kind of nights, where you dream of living in blessed solitude with nothing but a kindle to keep you warm Having visions that my husband finds himself in a tall, long legged, gorgeous young hotties vagina and dives in head first, I still might have a chance to meet a hot ass doc that treats me like gold Yeah that kind I LOVED this story, I fell head over heels for Nick from the first goofy ass cameo he made, and continued to swoon over every other moment they shared From the minute countdown texts, pebbles at the window, and the demanding hot talking man he could be when needed This story wasthan a love story, it was a reminder that even when the world as you know it drops out from under you, there iswaiting for you if you open your heart to it Finding the ability to move past the hurt and faults that paved the way to demise and start enjoying the road that you are now traveling on with out all the baggage Truly living in the moment and basking in real loveGreer was funny, real and I completely connected with her character Feeling her loss as her fault, by not being a good enough wife and mother may have lead to the decisions made by her douche bag ex Feeling at fault is a natural response to a family crumbling, I think evenso for a mother The way in which her ex went about his life and the complete disregard for his wife, friend and mother of his children was hard to swallow Worst fear recognized.I laughed, swooned, clenched my thighs and felt the nerves from starting over as my ownMs Joseph really touched on the feeling that turning 40 can evoke, insecurity, humor and overall life moments for everyone in this story


  3. Nikki Nikki says:

    I loved this book It was funny, sexy, and witty Greer is 39, divorced, single She meets Nick who is 29 She fights their relationship with her insecurities of being almost 40 and ten years older Maybe I loved it so much because my day of doom is around the corner I completely understood everything Greer felt and questioned Yes, there were some grammar misspelling errors but it did not bother me at all.


  4. Rachel Rachel says:

    Overall rating 3.5 Doc starsWhy 3.5 stars Well, I liked it but didn t love it It had nothing to do with the storyline or anything like that It didn t even hit on any of my triggers, but something just didn t feel complete for me I felt like something was missing and I would have liked a longer epilogue But I will say, I didn t like view spoiler how the cheating bastard of an ex husband also got an HEA Cheating is a huge trigger for me when reading books, regardless if he fell in love Overall rating 3.5 Doc starsWhy 3.5 stars Well, I liked it but didn t love it It had nothing to do with the storyline or anything like that It didn t even hit on any of my triggers, but something just didn t feel complete for me I felt like something was missing and I would have liked a longer epilogue But I will say, I didn t like view spoiler how the cheating bastard of an ex husband also got an HEA Cheating is a huge trigger for me when reading books, regardless if he fell in love That is just ridiculous to me that he got his happy ending hide spoiler Triggers Cheating view spoiler The heroine s ex husband had cheated on her and left her for another woman hide spoiler Love triangle view spoiler no hide spoiler Sex with om ow view spoiler no hide spoiler HEA view spoiler yes hide spoiler My review Greer, beautiful mother of two, is now divorced at 39 years old after her husband cheated on her and left her for another woman She is trying to move on with her life, but definitely wants nothing to do with another man Her ex husband gave her a bit of low self esteem, not only with leaving her for a younger model, but also how he treated her when they WERE married See Total jerk view spoiler why did he get an HEA again hide spoiler She owns her own dance studio and is a fantastic mom One chance encounter during traffic has her starting to feel alive again even if she will never see this stranger again As fate would have it, he keeps ending up in her path and he knows just what he wants I like Nick a lot I thought he was really patient with her and kind I liked how every time they had a fight, he would be the one to come running after her or they would meet each other halfway I thought overall this was a cute and sweet romance and this author is off to a pretty good start I would say, some editing is definitely needed Things I didn t like view spoiler I didn t like how Nick was adamant about finding out how long it has been sexually for Greer, but we never find out about him Kudos because he did use condoms until we find out that the heroine s tubes are tied, but still I would like to know that as a person and since he was the one that brought the subject up it was only fair Also, the drama with the ex GF who works in his office Now, why the hell would you screw someone you work with first off Then when he tells the heroine that it didn t last long, but then the girl tells the heroine later on that they screwed for a year A year is a long time to me and that was never clarified.We all know by now that I didn t like that Ryan got an HEA It wasn t just the cheating though which would have been enough for me anyway We find out things throughout the book, how he neglected the heroine and made her feel like shit a lot All of these actions led her to have a huge complex that almost ruined her relationship with Nick I don t care that he was a good Dad so freaking what If you were a GOOD Dad or person, you wouldn t have cheated to begin with or treated your wife like shit Also, I would have liked to haveof an epilogue It was a nice and sweet ending BUT I wantedfor some reason And I have to say that something felt like it was missing for me in this story Maybe it was Nick s character development We don t know much about him other than his profile 29 year old male, graduated from such and such and is an orthopedic surgeon I know that he and Greer had discussion about their lives, but we didn t get that information We got we didn t just have sex, we talked hide spoiler Anyway, I would recommend this to anyone who is looking for something light and sweet with very little drama Maybe I just wasn t in the mood for it Please don t go completely based on my review, but I actually did like this story Just didn t love it


  5. Michelle Michelle says:

    What an amazing and hilarious read One minute your heart hurts, then the next your laughing your ass off Such a great storyteller you are, M.R Joseph I just got lost in the story and couldn t put this book down Very truthful and emotional feelings were told in this story I highly recommend this book to any woman over the age of 35, you ll just get it My favorite lines are A small pageant wave out the door is all I can handle I m becoming better at it I should watch some old footage What an amazing and hilarious read One minute your heart hurts, then the next your laughing your ass off Such a great storyteller you are, M.R Joseph I just got lost in the story and couldn t put this book down Very truthful and emotional feelings were told in this story I highly recommend this book to any woman over the age of 35, you ll just get it My favorite lines are A small pageant wave out the door is all I can handle I m becoming better at it I should watch some old footage on YouTube of some Miss America so I can really get it down pat Greer, the main female character trying to be sociable to her ex husband s 25year old girlfriend. The next one is My eyes travel and lock on his Bravery comes to those who finally accept the fear and face the ones head on that take over your mind, body, and soul Greer gaining the courage to finally confront her ex husband for his infidelity and his part in ruining their marriage I love the relationships of everyone in this book And heck, you know you have friends for life when they help nickname your ex husband s 25 year old girlfriend Silicone Valley epic


  6. Cole Cole says:

    4.5 funny, sweet, heartwarming s It s so true if you haven t been in someone else s shoes, you just don t know I ve been in Greer s shoes, and the author hit the nail on the head with this one I truly loved all the characters not Ryan, he s an a hole Looking forward to readingbooks by Ms Joseph


  7. ✰ BJ& ✰ BJ& says:

    Full review at from 6th Feg 2015ARC received for an honest reviewM.R Joseph is a new to me author, but I can tell you now, I won t be a stranger to her work any39 and holding is a gem of a book I hit that big 40 last year, so some of the things our leading lady Greer goes through hit right at home not the cheating husband deal, but some of her thoughts and feelings absolutely spot on to what I have felt We meet Greer as her marriage is falling apart, an Full review at from 6th Feg 2015ARC received for an honest reviewM.R Joseph is a new to me author, but I can tell you now, I won t be a stranger to her work any39 and holding is a gem of a book I hit that big 40 last year, so some of the things our leading lady Greer goes through hit right at home not the cheating husband deal, but some of her thoughts and feelings absolutely spot on to what I have felt We meet Greer as her marriage is falling apart, and she is going through all the emotional stuff hitting middle age, being a mother, shutting her heart to ever finding love ever again.A chance, brief encounter with a sexy, chocolate doughnut eating hottie in traffic one day brings those feelings back to life.Dr Nick Costa aka Mr Doughnut has her feeling things she hasn t felt in a long time but they were just strangers passing in the traffic or were they I really enjoyed the banter between Nick and Greer It is fun, witty, full of sexual innuendos And when their lives are thrown together, those innuendos become a thing of the past.There is so many emotions in 39 and Holding One minute you are laughing, the next your heart is hurting for either Greer or Nick as they tread the path of love and relationships.I could completely relate to Greer She has body image concerns, relationship concerns, worries about her children I loved that she wasn t some perfect woman with the perfect life Oh and I love how she and Nick tease each other about her cougar issues.Nick is just swoon worthy I loved him from the minute he ate that first doughnut I love how he pursues Greer, how he feels about her, how he makes her feel I love how he loves her kids I love how he gets angry for her over what happened I love how he doesn t give up when she tries to pull away.So, can Greer and Nick make a go of things Or will Greer s worries be too much for them Nuh uh for that you are going to have to read for yourself.There is a great cast of secondardy characters Greer s gay husband Sean and his partner, her best friend Jules They are hilarious If you looking for a smart, funny, sexy romance with a lot of heart, 39 and Holding is the book for you


  8. Sarah-Jane Sarah-Jane says:

    Holding is a light, funny, sexy, romantic read If you are looking for a book to lighten your mood make you laugh then this is the book you should most definitely read Greer Walker is a mum of two, dance instructor she s experienced the ultimate betrayal Her Husband has left her broken distrusting of the Male species Leaving you for a young, blonde, tight in all the right areas, 20 something bimbo must leave your confidence a little knocked S Holding is a light, funny, sexy, romantic read If you are looking for a book to lighten your mood make you laugh then this is the book you should most definitely read Greer Walker is a mum of two, dance instructor she s experienced the ultimate betrayal Her Husband has left her broken distrusting of the Male species Leaving you for a young, blonde, tight in all the right areas, 20 something bimbo must leave your confidence a little knocked She has to keep her spirits high for the sake of her kids, she doesn t want them to know how much she is hurting She can t forgive her Ex Husband for the way he made be feel and the things he said to her, and she is comparing all men to him All that changes one day in the most unlikely place Traffic Sitting in traffic singing away too herself, in her own little world She meets a very witty guy eating chocolate donuts Not only is he friendly and funny but he is VERY easy on the eye, she cant help but squirm when he looks in her direction.Greer being the tough women she is, ignores his advances and just continues on her way Will she come to regret her decision of not getting the strangers number Why shouldn t she be happy Why shouldn tt she move on Nick Costa can t stop thinking about the women from the car who caught his eye Shame he didn t get a name, which makes it pretty damn impossible to find her again.Fate is on side when unfortunately for her, Sophie, Greer s daughter breaks her arm and ends up in the hospital and who happens to be the Dr None other than Mr Hot Donut man Is this a sign from up above that Greer needs to forgive the male species and move on from her ex husband I believe it is Fate doesn t throw two complete strangers together TWICE unless it was on purposeWill Dr Nick be the one to help mend Greer and her Broken heart or will Greer let the insecurities her ex husband has left her with ruin what could potentially be something beautiful I m a huge fan of M.R Joseph s work and she did not disappoint with 39 Holding, if anything she exceeded my expectations This book has it all Comedy, romance, tears and tantrums I fell I love with all the characters in this book even the douchebag ex This author has a way of making you love all her characters even the douchy ones Remember, my dear No matter what the year, the season, or the reason, love comes to you when it s the most unexpected thing The unexpected things are the gifts we should cherish the most If I m completely honest, which I have been known for Greer Walker is my favourite lead female by far in the recent books i ve read She s strong and feisty on the outside, and she has a no shit attitude but on the inside she is just as broken and torn up as anyone else would be She has the bestest friends any girl could ask for and two beautiful children and she hides it all perfectly from them Will she finally let go and give into her second chance Will she finally let go of the hurt she has kept and finally accept everything happens for a reason Another well deserved 5 star review for M.R Joseph


  9. Julie Mcintyre Julie Mcintyre says:

    It felt like a girl s night out Laughing, crying, talking about men, boobs, and even puking in a purse M.R Joseph just gets it, and you can tell when you re reading any of her books but especially 39 Holding The characters feel like your best friends and by the end you re laughing and crying right along with them.I can say that out of the thousands of books I have read, 39 holding, is one of my absolute favorites Between the tears I was shedding, and the laughter, it made me take a hard lo It felt like a girl s night out Laughing, crying, talking about men, boobs, and even puking in a purse M.R Joseph just gets it, and you can tell when you re reading any of her books but especially 39 Holding The characters feel like your best friends and by the end you re laughing and crying right along with them.I can say that out of the thousands of books I have read, 39holding, is one of my absolute favorites Between the tears I was shedding, and the laughter, it made me take a hard look at my own insecurities whether they re body image, career, or age issues, and Just like Greer I was able to realize that in order to be happy in any relationship I need to love me before anyone else can Through her writing, and through Greer and her hilarious group of friends Author M.R Joseph was able to remind me that imperfect is beautiful Laughing with your friends is amazing, and finding a love that will see your flaws and love you anyway, well that s priceless Even if you re not 39, divorced or a single parent, this book will have you laughing your butt off, crying your eyes out, and frantically turning the pages while yelling at the characters Although it s a fictional story with fictional characters you can t help but get sucked into their lives and find yourself, loving each and every one of the characters, even Silicone Valley, lol.Watching the impact of Greer and her now Ex husband Ryan s marriage fall apart and the resulting damage to not just them but everyone around them, kids, friends, and to each of them I found myself inspecting my own marriage I took a good look at how we communicate, how we love each other, and how we fight.Greer and Ryan got to a point of indifference, not Hate The difference being, hate comes from a place of passion, where indifference is just a black hole, void of any kind of emotion Not a good place to be in any relationship, but definitely not where you want to be if you want your marriage to work.Dr Nick Costa aka Dr Doughnut is the sweetest fictional book boyfriend He s not without his own demons though Nick is not one to be intimidated by the fact that Greer has kids, or that she is divorced All he wants is a shot, a chance to prove to her that not all men are slime balls, and not all love is destined to fail Not once while reading this book did I feel like an outsider looking in I felt like one of the girls, cheering Greer on, giving her a shoulder to cry on, or even wanting to be the one to give her a swift kick in the ass when she obviously needed it.I can t stress how much I fell in love with this book, or how badly I want for each and every one of you to go read it.Bravo M.R Joseph on yet another wonderful book I can t wait to see what you come up with next


  10. Kristine GPI Bookblog Kristine GPI Bookblog says:

    Most stories end with the happily ever after, but what happens when you thought you already had yours, life is perfect, you ve done the big white dress, the white picket fence, had kids, settled down into a life of happy normalcy, and everything is coasting alonguntil it isn t Maybe the life you had wasn t so perfect after all.For Greer Walker, her world collapsed when she discovered her husband Ryan s infidelity There was no denial, no grovelling, no remorse, it was just over, packing up a Most stories end with the happily ever after, but what happens when you thought you already had yours, life is perfect, you ve done the big white dress, the white picket fence, had kids, settled down into a life of happy normalcy, and everything is coasting alonguntil it isn t Maybe the life you had wasn t so perfect after all.For Greer Walker, her world collapsed when she discovered her husband Ryan s infidelity There was no denial, no grovelling, no remorse, it was just over, packing up and leaving his family for his new younger lady Hindsight is 20 20 though, as Greer deals with the emotional wreckage of her marriage she is forced to see her seemingly perfect world in a whole new light.For me reading 39 Holding brought to the surface so many fears and doubts, I have always believed the opposite of love was hate, but wading through the collapse of Greer s marriage with her, I realised something so incredibly enlightening, the opposite of love is indifference, because at least hate comes from a passionate place, but indifference with its shroud of nothingness is so much worse While Ryan had always been a good husband , a loving father, somewhere along the lines Ryan stopped seeing Greer as his lover, and Greer stopped feeling desired and wanted.Enter Nick Costa, young and sexy doctor, after a chance meeting, sparks fly and Greer finds herself attracted to someone other than her ex husband for the first time in years, testing the dating waters M.R Joseph takes us the reader on journey of self discovery, facing ones fears, and finding love and joy in yourself as an individual, as a woman, instead of just as a wife and mother.Nick Costa is quite the hero in this story, his ability to support and nurture Greer, to show her desire and lust in ways that have become foreign to her, his innate ability to show Greer how beautiful, talented and special she is, only adds to his charm When so many books focus on the alpha male and the timid shy na ve heroine, 39 Holding dares to focus on a successful, smart, mother of two nearing her forties and a young focused professional doctor who s looking to settle down instead of bed hopping.Heartbreakingly beautiful and so incredibly poignant at times, 39 Holding had me laughing one moment and crying the next, what I adored so much about M.R Joseph s latest book is how deeply I understood Greer and her self doubts, her fears and in turn her journey, my reaction was a visceral one, Joseph s words had me lookingdeeply at my own marriage, focusing time back into it, reminding me that we arethan just husbands and wives, or mothers and fathers.39 Holding started out as a funny, light, sexy read and it turned into something so much